faces all look the same to me these days. nothing feels new or original. i used to joke about losing my mind, but lately it feels like i just may be. to be honest, it doesn't even bother me that much. life is so fake to me sometimes, i think it may be a breath of fresh air to just live in my own world for a while. im tired of not sleeping but saying that I am. im tired of pills. the laughs, the smiles, the attitude, it's all a facade. im waiting for doctor visits and test results that i don't even want to know. i have been lying to everyone so much lately that im starting to forget what the truth is. what would it take to just disappear for a while?