i don't know why i kept holding on to the past. i little bit of "what should have been" mixed with a lot of "what could have been". a regret cocktail that never got me drunk. this time im cutting ties as easily as you shut off your emotions towards me. this is me printing off your photos so i can put them away in a box in the attic. clearing up hard drive space for someone who actually wants to be a part of my life as much as i want to be a part of theirs

i wont forget the good times.
i don't regret the bad.

ohnostalgiaidontneedyouanymore

This town has become rather stagnant
I think it's because it's full of people
Who didn't chase their dreams after high school
Or never had any to begin with
I just got sidetracked
But that is all going to change
Starting now


youcanbeyourownspotlight

drunk ramblings or truth scrambling?
ignore the slurs
listen to my heart
(you're perfect to me)

countdown to the breakdown.
love more.
hate less.
i'd kiss you again if i had the chance.
you were my best, just not my last.

i could end this but it would feel more like a (death) sentence. twenty-six years and i still feel so worthless. add one and i assume i should be done. add another four and i feel i deserve a few more. loose lips. sunken (friend)ships. case closed until found guilty beyond an (un)reasonable doubt. connect the dots to feel okay. close the book cause you feel left out.

this is done.

not sharing the new address.

but if you're smart you may find it.

im not lucky, perfect or any of that jazz.
i try but not my hardest because this doesn't define me.
life is upon lives.
sleeping before weeping.
no one matters as much as you.
don't cry.
just sleep.
you're everything to someone.
you're nothing to me.