when the smoke clears, and the dust finally settles, it's only then that you can really get a good look at the mess you made for yourself. you may be scared, you may be ashamed, you may feel an entirely new emotion that you didn't even know existed until that day. but no matter what, you have to take the initiative to finally break down and start rebuilding everything that took years to build but only a small amount of time to destroy. you have to face your mistakes head on and know that you are the only person who can do anything to fix them.and once you do that, don't look back. keep moving forward. that's the only way to change from the person you were, into the person you want to become. keep your faith. hold on to your hope. smile, because no matter what, things can only get better from there. you were born a disaster kid, now change it.