don't call it a comeback

back and forth is all we have ever known. i thought it was comfortable, you said it was inevitable. either way, i'm glad we're on the same page now. you can ask me how you look in that dress and i can tell you that you look like shit.

who said chivalry was dead?

oops.

you always were way too pretty for your own good.

and i meant to tell you that.

but i was too busy fucking your best friend.

i have a secret, and i'm not too sure how far past my lips this one will go yet. It's my own so if i let it go, i'm only h(urt)elping myself. i took a peek into your little world today because I felt like i needed to be brought back down to reality. i like seeing you happy again. the world deserves to see your beautiful smile more often.

this is so old and overdone.

i woke up today hating the smell of this town. decided to get up and take my life into my own hands again. if only i could see you for just five minutes. i would kiss your forehead and remind you that my heart is still in your clutch. after that i'll let you go about your business. i'll drive down the highway back to my town and try my hardest to hold back the tears this time. i swore i wouldn't come back to this place but you need the pain to keep you sane from time to time. my sweet, can't we just fall in love tonight? my hands are cold and you were always so good at keeping me warm. ill sneak kisses on your cheek, and you can look at me from the corner of your eyes and smile. put your head on my shoulder and make me feel complete. just like in the movies.

show me a light that shines brighter than your eyes the day you kissed me on my face and swore you'd never leave my side.

your words are lies.

i had a dream that i got to lay with you and kiss your face and neck.

it felt so real.

even the part when you said it wouldn't work.

maybe these are the last words i'll write. every wrong happens one after another and it makes me feel like i don't even know what's right anymore. i hide behind jokes and smirks because that's the easy way out. ya know, cop out before you call me out. none of this even makes sense anymore. words plus words equal some strange sort or watered down sanity. i've been known to drop weight like it's hot. diet heartbreak. low-carb loneliness. i cast all of my fears aside because i've never been one to look reality in the face. i think i need to take a break from everything and try to remember how to really live again. im losing my mind holding on to promises that were made and broken in one breath. love that seemed so solid and sank like the titanic. i refuse to go down with this ship. the band can play on but i wont be there to listen. im just a ghostly shell of an existence that at one point in time had a real meaning. maybe i'm letting my hands move faster than my brain again. either way, don't be surprised if i shy away from the world for a little while. hold on tight because this ride may not be over just yet. keep your eyes peeled. i've been told i shake things up from time to time. you always said we were ones to step on toes. i just hope i have enough weight for anyone to notice.