remember, regret, repeat

i haven't forgotten every night spent with you. fingers intertwined, talking about the future and making promises that may or may not be kept. when its all said and done we all become lonely hearts one day. you can lie to yourself and fake every emotion because you want to look better in person than you do on paper. go from lifeless to even lower at the drop of a name. i call myself the good guy, but i'm really no different than anyone else. i know the right times to smile and the right words to say to make you follow the storyline. i hold back so many words just to save face, but i dont even feel like i know this face anymore, so why do i even bother? these are just words, so don't take it all too seriously. feel free to rearrange them and put together whatever it is you wish i was saying. i'd say we've been close, but that only really counts in horseshoes and with hand grenades. last night i made a list of everything i liked about myself, but all i could write was your name.