i spent too many nights looking up at stars that i swore were burning for us an no one else. i guess i was too blind to notice that they had already burned out. silly me, i guess. i don't blame you for anything though. this is how life works, right? you make up your mind, you change your mind, you repeat the process. i should have put a little more thought and a little less heart into all of this. but i blame myself for that and no one else. for now, i'm going to spend my nights reminding myself that there is a (pre and post you) life. honestly i've been living it the last six months. i guess all i really regret is every lie i said in the form of "you are perfection" because that is obviously not the case. not anymore at least. i wish it would rain today because i feel like that is the only time i really can be alone with my thoughts. i'm tired of sleepless nights and forced smiles. im just ready to meet someone that deserves everything i do, and im sorry sweetheart, but you just aren't her. she's out there though. if you happen to meet her, give her my number, would ya?