i may be wasting words when i write, but i try and convince myself that they matter (at least a little anyway) i feel like my mouth is on a ten second delay because my brain is scared of what i might say. my mouth is constantly writing checks that my heart ca(wo)n't cash. maybe i should just keep quiet all together. i thought about calling you today just to say hi and see how you were doing. instead my phone stopped working. ill take that as a sign.