today i woke up and actually thought everything was going to be okay. searching for words that i had in their right place before, but today they seem to be scattered. maybe it’s a hint for me to change their order. maybe i can spell out something beautiful this time. winter’s not quite over, but i find myself longing for the summer heat.i miss nights with the cool breeze on my face, and the bright parking lot lights. where we said we were going to leave an hour ago, but got lost in conversation. honestly, i wouldn’t trade those nights for the world. they remind me that sometimes i’m so fucking on. every day doesn’t have to be a sick day. every negative thought doesn’t have to be the end of the world. i don’t want to go about this on my own. it’s not that i need you to hold me up, i just like knowing that if i fall back a little, you’ll be there to help catch me.