i should be asleep but i was feeling like shit earlier so i slept all day.

ugh.


i love how people act so different when their emotions are running things, and not their head. it happens to us all, and i totally get it. but it really is the worst thing you can let happen. the sad thing is there are at least 5 people that read this blog that probably think this post is specifically about them, and i promise you it's not. this is just me seeing the trend and trying to figure it all out i guess.


you can hate me, not want to be my friend, think im an asshole, be jealous of me, be jealous of my friendships, regret missing out on what we had, wish you talked to me more, wish i cared about you more, wish you had told me how much you cared about me all you want. whatever it is that you feel about me, it's fine. but i'm not sorry because i've done what i can with each situation, so the rest is up to you. im tired of being made to feel like shit because i don't deserve to.


i guess this is my way of letting everyone know that they can fuck off for all I care. i try to keep the super personal stuff off of here but goddamnit its hard sometimes, especially when some of you are following me on here.


i know this is TL;DR but whatever. i may even decide that i'm letting my emotions take over and delete it in the morning but whatever.