i feel like ive spent my whole life searching for something. but ive only found myself alone, heartbroken, and one step away from letting this end(ie). one look away from handing you my life. one kiss away from falling in love. i hate everything about this but im amazed by everything about you. if only i wasnt so shy, id actually let you know. my eyes ( and heart) are screaming "i love you" so loud, i dont understand how you cant hear it.i want this so bad, but i havent done a thing to get it. stupid boy. i wouldnt be me if i wanted something i could actually get. Its always some(one)thing out of my reach. pathetic.Theres only so many excuses i can make for myself. (i never believe them)