it's not what it looks like

i hate you. you are the wor(be)st thing to happen to me. five foot, gorgeous and i was in love from the the second you said my name. i spent so long searching for flaws and after a while, i decided there were none. you owned me. i know you loved me too. you were the only thing making me smile, and that scared me because i didnt like you having that much power. i let my guard down. (like always) you took advantage.(like always) kids like me never learn. dont feel bad. im doing it to myself. i cant give up on you. i gave up on myself a long time ago so it's like you're all ive got.i know the drill.fall in love, break heart, let heal then repeat. but i live for those times in between heartbreaks. it makes it all worth it.i love you.